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Hey LJ World. How I have missed you. I have been gone a long time, but I promise to update regularly. Where to start....My life is kinda chaotic and messy right now, but that's how I like it. I finally have a college degree. I graduated in May 2007. YAY! But, is that ever enough for me? NO!!! LOL! I am going back to school, starting next week to get another degree. This time I actually know what I want to major in. I want to get a degree in Social Work. I love the work I do now and all the hard work (and beatings) paid off and now my client doesn't have agressive behaviors like she used to! YAY! I am now a supervisor. I love it. I don't feel like a supervisor because I do the exact same work that my employees do, I just have meetings and such to attend that they don't! LOL!
After being single for so long, I can no longer consider myself such. I have been with Jeremy consistently for the last 10 months. That is amazing for us. As for a little history update, Jeremy and I started dating in late 2003. At this time, I was in love (not infatuated...completely in love) with his friend Phillip. Like J and I's relationship was gonna work out when I was in love with his friend. I am so naive sometimes. So, J and I "broke up" in February 2004. Phillip broke my heart into a million pieces in April 2004. I started talking to Jeremy again in July 2004. I pretty much told him that I missed him and was ready for a serious relationship. WRONG!!! That lasted off and on til February 2005. I didn't talk to him for awhile. Then I started talking to him again in August 2006. Finally, I was ready for a serious relationship. We were doing good, then all of a sudden up and moves to Chicago (which is totally fine...I can work with that). But, when the move to Chicago happened (right before Thanksgiving 2006), he quit calling and making plans, etc. He called randomly throughout 2007, but I was hurt and didn't really want to talk to him. I answered the phone every time he called and listened to what he had to say, but I wasn't about to jump into a relationship with him. He called me on November 1, 2007 and said that he wanted to come see me. THAT WAS A FIRST. I was normally being coerced into coming to see him. I told him that I was unfortunately out of town. He hung up the phone without a goodbye. (THAT IS ONE OF THE WORST THINGS YOU CAN DO TO ME!!) I chalked it up to being his loss and had my fun at my concert. November 3, I get a phone call while I am a my grandma's house watching the kids. It was Jeremy. He was again wanting to come see me. I told him that I was free the next day and he could come up then. HE WAS COMING! We talked pretty much all day that Saturday (Nov. 3), then he decided to come up that day. I told him that I wouldn't be home, but he was welcome to come up. So, he did. We talked literally from the time he got to my house like 9p til 5am, when I decided to drive home and quit talking to him over the phone. We spent the day together and had fun. My favorite part of the day was being cuddled up in bed, watching the football game together. I love me some football. I have always wanted to watch the game and enjoy it with someone I care about. I mean I always "watch" the game with Jeff, but he is in the Merriland and I in Indiana...NOT THE SAME THING!! LOL! Anyway, Jeremy and I continued talking over the next few months. I still couldn't trust either of us to be in a relationship together. Then one day in January of 2008, I realized that I was in love with him. No matter what mishaps he may have, I know that I love him. He has told me numerous times during our nearly 5 year history, that I am the one he is supposed to be with and that he has loved me since the beginning. I can't say the same, but I can say now with certainty that I love him. He makes me happy. His love/hate relationship with his brother, I can do without being in the middle of. Which seems like where I am constantly put. I just keep telling myself that tomorrow is a new day. On that note, I best be getting ready for work. Oh the joy!!Current Mood:  exhausted Current Music: none |
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May. 5th, 2006 @ 11:56 pm
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someone shoot me please. all i need is someone to talk to right now. i feel like shit. i hate coming to work every single day knowing that i am going to get hit, kicked, scratched, etc. I told Ellie that i have had enough. it is getting rediculous. i realize that i am working with someone who is psychotic, but she can control it on some level. she needs to take responsibility for what she does. it is driving me fucking crazy! ellie says i need a break. isn't that the god's honest truth?? it's about time someone realized it. i have next thursday off for my grandma's retirement party. i also have may 25 off from the site, but i have to go to training from 10am-6pm. why can't June 21 get here faster and brent can perform his husbandly duties! i am staring at Miyavi at the moment. he is making me smirk, but seeing brent all sweaty and singing his heart out will fix all my problems. if only for one night. he could do a lot of other things that would fix my problems for more than one night but we won't go into that ^_^ well, i am going to get off of here and head home from this place that loves to torture me.Current Mood:  pissed off Current Music: none |
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Hey guys! Long time right? I really haven't been up to much. Just living life. I signed up for Summer '06 and Fall '06 classes. After I complete both of those semesters, I have one more semester to go and I will be able to graduate. YAY! So, I will graduate May 2007, then Italy here I come!!!!
It's official! I can no longer listen to R. Kelly's "Bump and Grind" without busting out laughing. I put my Monster Booty CD in my CD player in my car today and this song came on and I tried to sing along, but all I could so was laugh because images of Seth Green, Matthew Lillard, and Dax Sheppard popped in my head (from the movie "Without A Paddle"). LOL! If you have seen the movie, you know what I am talking about.
I have 4 more episodes to watch of Season 5 of Six Feet Under. I have a feeling I am going to be extremely sad when it is over with.
The more I watch Miami Ink, the more I want a new tattoo. Too bad I literally have no money. So, if you have any money to spare, throw it my way! Especially you ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) swhitetiger614, you owe me some moola! Payday is Thursday *hint hint* *nudge nudge wink wink* lol!
I have resorted back to donating plasma. I made my first appt for next Wednesday (4/12)! That is my sad state of affairs, but I have to pay for my Summer classes. My mom said she would help if I REALLY needed it, but I would rather do it on my own if at all possible.
Oh, my brother, Kenna, and I are going to see Lynyrd Skynyrd and 3 Doors Down in Indianapolis on July 11. We buy tickets on Saturday. Woohoo! It will probably be my one and only concert this summer. I am also going to Niagara Falls in August.
Well, I am gonna go! Goodnight and Good luck!Current Mood:  contemplative Current Music: Wrecks to Riches on TV |
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Feb. 25th, 2006 @ 07:03 pm
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Well, here are my pics from the Sno-Core Concert. I have pics of Shinedown, Flyleaf, and Halestorm.
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So.....GUESS WHAT EVERYONE?!?!? Brianna is the proud new owner of a 2006 Toyota Corolla. I signed all the papers and drove it home today. The best part is that is I got it all on my own. I did it with my credit and no one else's help. Do you know how great and independent that makes me feel? I feel like I am on top of the world. I have been calling everyone I know and telling them, hoping they could share in my excitement. hehe. I am such a goofball. Ohi, I also spent some major moola on ebay this weekend. I bought this pretty cool Shinedown Poster. (No worries, Jess. I bought you one too.) I also bought an 8x10 photo that was taken of Brent at a 9-11 function. Finally I bought the newest Milo Ventimiglia movie, Dirty Deeds. I have weaknesses and these men are two of them. hehe.Current Mood:  chipper Current Music: Seinfeld on TV |
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So...last night was the Sno-Core Concert. It was awesome. Jess and I left Bloomington around 10am. We stopped at Keystone at the Crossing and went to the Apple Store. I want an Apple iBook more than ever before now, but I promised my grandma I wouldn't buy one. We also went to the Cheesecake Factory for lunch. We both had a couple of Long Island Iced Teas. So we were a bit tipsy. We then continued our trek to Ft. Wayne. We passed the exit to Muncie and Ball State on I-69 and waved to Audrey ^_^ When we got to Ft. Wayne, we got a front row parking spot and sat in the car for a while. Then we got out and stood in line. We were the first ones in line. We stood in the cold and snow for an hour and half. Then were let into the bar to stand for another hour. Then they opened the doors and Jess and I got right against the barriers right in front of the stage. The concert was supposed to start at 6:30pm, but it didn't end up starting until after 7pm. Halestorm's set was awesome. Lizzy sang her heart out. She is so down to earth. I really didn't get to enjoy Flyleaf's set because of people trying to take our spots and steal our purses. Lacey had a lot of energy and got the crowd into it. Shinedown was awesome as always. Brent was right smack dab in front of me. I was in love. When he came on stage he poured 2 bottles of water on us. Heaven. I have figured out that he gets a high from the crowd. He feeds off of us. It's great. The look in his eyes....Priceless. And trust me I was staring into his eyes the whole time. At one point, he pointed directly at me and looked straight in my eyes. I melted. Goo was I! It was wonderful. I am glad Brent feeds off of the crowd, but he doesn't have to encourage moshing. LOL! I was pushed into the barrier sooooo many times and hit by so many crowd surfers (I counted at least 9.) One of the crowd surfers really messed up my shoulder. At the end of the concert, the drummer was throwing drumsticks and he started to give one to me, but the chick next me took it. I did get a set list off of the stage though. Jess wasn't feeling well at all after Shinedown's set, so she made the decision to leave. We stopped by the souvenier table and I got a Shinedown Jacket and shirt. Jessica got a Sno-Core Tour Shirt and Halestorm Shirt. We went to Mickey-D's, so I could get Jess some H20 and food. After that I drove home. I was fine until I got on 37. I started hallucinating. I was seeing comets coming out of the street signs. The reflectors looked like people walking in fields. There were people popping up out of the road. It wasn't good. I was never so glad to pull into Jess' parking lot. I went straight to bed and woke up at 11:30am. I got dressed and packed up and headed back up to Indy to spend the weekend with my brother and his girlfriend. We went grocery shopping. We are in the process of cooking dinner and copying DVD's. Later we are going to go Cosmic Bowling (Nick's treat.) How Fun!
Feb. 18th, 2006 @ 04:38 pm
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Hey guys. Today was the first day of the semester. Interpersonal Commucations is gonna be fun. The way she has it set up online, I can just tell. In Lifespan Development, we have 2 weeks to read the 1st 3 chapters of the book plus a couple of articles. I started reading in Lifespan Development and it is really interesting. English Comp. didn't even have a syllabus posted yet. WTF?!? Hello! I have my first class of Anatomy and Physiology 2 tomorrow morning at 10am. YAY, RAH!
I have vowed to do more reading for fun during this semester, so I don't get burnt out. This semester is going to require alot of reading. I am now reading "The Second Summer of the Sisterhood" by Ann Brashares.
I went and saw Brokeback Mountain last night. After much thought and contemplation, I have come to the conclusion that I liked the movie. Hell, it made me cry and if a movie can accomplish that it has got to be good. I still can't picture Heath Ledger and Jake Gylenhaal as gay cowboys having sex, but by golly they do.
I still want to "Memoirs of a Geisha", "Rumor Has It", "Casanova", and "Tristan and Isolde". So, if anyone wants to go see any of those movies with me, let me know. I think my grandma is tired of going to see movies with me :( She told me yesterday that I need a boyfriend. Geez, is this the consensus? Does poor pathetic Brianna need a boy? I don't need a boy! I would like to have a boy, but I sure as HELL don't NEED one! Let's make that very clear! hehe!
Jess...How's about we do something Sunday since you are off work! Atleast from Stoneybelty!
Jan. 9th, 2006 @ 11:51 pm
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Yay! Isn't that a change! I just found out that my band Shinedown is playing in Ft. Wayne on February 17 with Seether. Jess says it is a definite that we are going and that excites me to no end. I have been feigning to see Shinedown again since October 21. LOL! They are playing at the biggest club in the midwest. Piere's. It is 5 clubs in one actually. I am so so so excited. It is general admission once again. Even better. Up close and personal with Mr. Brent Smith. I wonder if he will be on the drugs again. LMAO, Jess! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Sorry. Just had to share.
Dec. 28th, 2005 @ 11:04 pm
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Why you may ask am I a fucking idiot? Well, let's start off with this and it will pretty much give it all away. Phillip is married and has a new baby.
How might I know this? ONE GUESS! I am a fucking idiot! Oh, but it doesn't stop there. NO! Let me explain before the beating begins, please!
So, I am on myspace.com and my curiousity got the best of me, so I search Phillip's name. MAGIC! There is a Phillip Fischer in Greensburg, IN. FUCK! So, I read the profile and find out that he is married and has a new baby. I add him as a friend. One would think that I would stop there, huh? Nope. I look at the pics he has posted of his wife, the new baby, and Alexis. (There were no pics of Kelsie) One would think that would be enough. WRONG AGAIN. I wrote him a message. FUCK, why oh why did I do that? I wanted to delete it as soon as I sent it. Here is what it said:
"hey phil. i never thought i would see the day that phillip fischer would be married. congrats. gosh, alexis has gotten so big. why are there no pics of Kels? your new daughter is beautiful. anyway, i just wanted to say hi.
brianna "
See nothing bad, but still I opened the lines of communication. Something I never should have done. STUPID STUPID STUPID! He was my first love and I am still searching for closure. I am over him, but still I don't want to get sucked back into the web known as Phillip Joseph Fischer. FUCK!
I did get a nice message from Michael Black (a guy I went to H.S. with) wishing me a merry christmas though and I hadn't talked to him since H.S. He is in Iraq. Anyway!
Dec. 26th, 2005 @ 09:53 pm
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Well here they are:
Anatomy and Physiology 1 B
Medical Terminology B (I am fighting this one...see below)
Intermediate Algebra A
Intro To Microcomputers A
Well, Medical Terminology....I made an A on damn near every test with the exception of 2 I believe and the 2 I didn't get an A on were high B's like 88% and 89% and I made 100% on every single assignment. So, I just don't see how I made a B in the class. So, I emailed the teacher and she said to call her on January 3 to talk about it.
My Cummulative GPA went from 3.0 to 3.2! YAHOO. It would have been a 3.3 had I got the A, I expected in Medical Terminology. My GPA for the semester is a 3.5, it would have been a 3.75 if I would have gotten the A in Medical Terminology.
Dec. 21st, 2005 @ 02:46 pm
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I am making my announcement that my boys Broken Stone are once again going to be playing at Rhino's in Bloomington on February 17th at 8pm. I have already wrangled swhitetiger614 if she can get off of work. Anyone else care to join us? They are pretty damn awesome :)) I think it is like a $5 cover charge. The more the merrier! I will be there.
P.S. I have lost 10 lbs since Thanksgiving. Woohoo. Go me. Normally people gain weight around the holidays and I am losing! That makes me happy.
Dec. 14th, 2005 @ 12:08 pm
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Brianna is tired beyond belief. I have a test over Access in Microcomputers and a Lab test in Anatomy and Physiology before I am done with the semester. I will be completing those tomorrow. I will be so glad to be done.
My parent's annual Christmas party was last Saturday. I had sex with the captain. It was delish. I also drank a couple of Smirnoff's. I won big at the Casino games and walked away the top winner of the night, which landed me a $100 gift card to Home Depot. What the hell would I do with that? haha. I traded the 2nd place winner (Kenna's mom, LaDonna) for the $50 Simon gift card. 3rd prize was $25 gift card to Chili's. 4th prize was a wine gift basket. 5th prize was a tin of nuts. haha. The top kids prize was an iPod Shuffle and all of the other kids got those plug and play old school video games like Ms. Pacman. I wanted Ms. Pacman so bad. hehe. All in all my parents threw another killer party that I wouldn't have missed for the world.
I only owe $420 more on my transmission and I am home free on owing anything further on my car. You don't know how happy that makes me. So, if on January 4 the world seems bright and cheery it is because I officially owe nothing on Bessy for the first time in almost 3 years! That means I am that much closer to a brand spankin' new car. Now I just have to decide what car I want :))
Dec. 13th, 2005 @ 10:58 pm
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So...I talked to Scott for about an hour on Friday. It was fun. He provided me with just the comfort I needed. We talked about the girl he is dating. Yes, he is dating someone. I am glad he is finally dating though. He never dated in high school. The only thing about the girl he is dating is that she is going to ASU (in Arizona) in January. They are going to continue seeing each other. He really likes her and I think it's cute. I told him so. He told me I need to start dating. Between him and Jeff, I swear! lol!
On Saturday, I went and saw Prime before heading up to Indianapolis. I have to say that it was excellent. A must see. I am very impressed. Bryan did an excellent acting job. My grandma even thought it was excellent and she was very impressed. This is the film that is going to take Bryan's career places. At least I hope it will. I thought he was perfect for the role. Meryl Streep and Uma Thurman were exceptional as well.
The concert was fun as always. Before the concert, we ate at the TGI Friday's downtown. We sat at the bar. Never done that before. The bartender was cute and flirty and now has my phone number thanks to my mother. lol. My boys were extremely goofy and they claimed that they hadn't been drinking. I don't know whether to believe them or not. haha. Brian Hughes was acting weird around me. Maybe because he remembers what happened last year and this year he is back together with his wife. Who knows? Aaron forgot his lines. It was highly amusing. I had to tease him about that one.
Speaking of concerts, anyone up for going to a concert with me this Saturday at Rhino's? It starts at 8pm and there is a $5 cover. I am going to see Broken Stone, but there are a couple of other bands playing as well. Broken Stone is a band that I know a couple of members of. Well, I went to high school with them. They are really good. http://www.myspace.com/brokenstone
Nov. 7th, 2005 @ 10:36 pm
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So, Melissa is pregnant. She is due in May. Cavan is gonna have a baby brother or sister. Everyone knows besides Chris and my mom. LOL. I am making Melissa tell Chris. Hell, Amy knows. haha. But we all agree that Melissa should be teh one to break it to Chris.
In other news, Amy and Chris applied for a marriage license. If you would told me at this time last year that Chris would be getting married and Melissa would be having someone else's baby, I would have laughed in your face. It's amazing what can happen in a year.
I am actually happy for both of them. I am excited to add another baby to the family. 3 years ago there were none, now there are 3. hehe.
Nov. 4th, 2005 @ 07:51 pm
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I just got an email from Fredalba saying that Eric isn't going to make the show on Friday. Good thingI didn't make plans to go out there. I would have been severely disappointed. They are still doing the show, just with no vocals. Purely instrumental. It would still be an awesome show, but I wouldn't want my first live Fredalba concert to be sans Eric. Especially if I shelled out all that dough to get there, ya know?
P.S. The weekly fits with violence at work that involve me getting punched are getting REALLY old.
Nov. 3rd, 2005 @ 11:53 pm
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So, I am officially pre-diabetic. I have to take a medicine called glucophage daily. I have been taking it for a week. I also have to see a diabetic dietrition on November 18. When I went and saw Dr. Headdy on Oct 24, he gave me a big hug and yelled at me for having a tattoo. lol. Gotta love having a doctor who is good friends with your mom.
I brought my grade in Anatomy and Physiology back up to a B, which excites me to no end. I just hope I do extremely well on our big Lecture Exam on Monday. I want to keep my B. My grade in Intro to Micro Computers is way too close to no longer being an A. I must study majorly for the test we have on Excel next week. I also have a test in Intermediate Algebra next week that is worth 150 points and is only 10 questions long. Next week is going to long and stressful.
With all of this studying I have to do, I actually have plans this weekend. I know! What a rarity for me Miss-I-Don't-Have-A-Life to have plans, but I do. hehe. I have Cavan til noon on Saturday. Then I am going to try to squeeze a movie in (I MUST SEE PRIME). Then, I have to be in Mooresville by 4:15pm to meet my mom and Darla. We are going to see the Harmony Brigade Choir concert in Indy. The concerts are so much fun. Plus, I get to spend time with my mom and Darla and see the boys perform. I am gonna stay the night at mom's. Do some shopping in Indy and go see my movie in Indy if I don't have time to see it Saturday. I might see what's playing at the $1.00 movies for the heck of it. After that, I will head home and finish watching the O.C. Season 2 and study for my Anatomy test.
I got The Perfect Man. I will have to watch it sometime. I could have watched it instead of writing this, but I was watching Freddie. I love that show. Freddie Prinze, Jr. and Brian Austin Green have always been weaknesses of mine. They are such players on the show. It cracks me up. The Pacers game is delaying One Tree Hill and Related. I have already seen the episode of Related, but I want to see One Tree Hill. I am completely addicted to TV.
Monday's I watch 7th Heaven and Related
Tuesday's I watch Gilmore Girls and Supernatural
Wednesday's I watch One Tree Hill and the re-run of Related (and I tape Freddie)
Thursday's I watch Everwood (I think I am going to start watching the O.C.)
Friday's I watch The Ghost Whisperer, Reba, and Twins
The saddest thing is that Eric Balfour's show "Sex, Love, & Secrets" got cancelled I think. It was on the UPN and I don't get the UPN at home, only at work. Speaking of Eric Balfour, anyone wanna come with me to Los Angeles this Friday? LOL! I really want to go. Fredalba is playing at a club in LA celebrating Paul's (the bass player's) birthday. Damn. I will get to go one of these days. I will see Fredalba play live if it is the last thing I do.
Well. The Pacers won. Good, now can they get off the TV screen so Chad Michael Murray and James Lafferty can make my night ;) haha. I don't just watch it for the guys. I love the show. There is gonna be a lot of fighting in this episode. hehe.
I am just rambling about randomness at this point, so farewell til we meet again my friends.
haha....i just reminded myself of Brad Arnold. After every song at the concert, he'd say you sounded great my friends or you look beautiful my friends. lol. ok, we have discovered long ago that I have serious issues ;)
Nov. 2nd, 2005 @ 09:44 pm
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Well, as always...we didn't leave on time. It's a good thing we always leave ourselves plenty of time or one of these days we may actually be late. We ended up leaving my house around 10am. We got to Evansville around noon. We had lunch at TGI Friday's. We went shopping in the mall. Hot Topic was having an additional 50% off of their clearance, so of course we to check that out. Rosemarie called while I was in there. That was fun. We went to a store called Back In Time. They had tons of James Dean, Elvis, Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn, and Johnny Depp stuff. Needless to say, money was spent. We checked out a few other stores and on our way out, I saw Bath and Body Works and Kenna mentioned a lotion that she wanted there for Christmas, so I stopped in a got that for her. We headed over to the other mall because we still had time to kill and spotted a Priscilla's that we vowed to stop back by before heading to Roberts Stadium. When we got to Washington Square Mall, we saw that Bob and Tom's radio station was there, but we were in dire need of a restroom, so we went straight to the restroom. I was showing Jess where the Deb store was when we noticed a long line of people in front of Joe's Records. They were holding CD's, Guitars, DVD's, etc...Got me curious, but we cut through them and went into Deb anyway. When in Deb, I saw that one of the people had a Shinedown CD, which was one of the bands we were there to see. Jess and I started to head out and glanced in Joe's Records and low and behold, SHINEDOWN was there signing autographs and taking pictures. Jess and I made an executive decision and hopped in line just to realise that we had nothing for them to sign. So Jess got out of line and bought 2 copies of their CD (that both of us already own). They were really sweet. Brent (lead singer) called Jess "doll" and asked her to take a pic with them. She was such a fan girl after that. hehe. After the signing, we went to Priscilla's, then to Roberts Stadium. There were only like 5-6 people ahead of us in line. The two guys in front of us were very amusing though they were still in high school. We waited almost 2 hours in the cold and rain to get as close to the stage as possible and it paid off. We were 3 rows back center stage. It was great. All of the bands were awesome. I must go buy Alter Bridge's album now. Shinedown was great. Brent was back on the drugs or maybe it was just adrenaline. Who the hell knows. lol. 3 Doors Down kicked ass, as one would expect. The pyrotechnics didn't disappoint. I took tons of pics and I post them in the next post.
Oct. 22nd, 2005 @ 06:57 pm
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Isn't he adorable?!? Thanks to Jamie for sharing your baby with me ^_^
Oct. 16th, 2005 @ 11:50 pm
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yeah yeah yeah...pity party for one. so fucking sue me. it's my journal and i can whine about my life if i so chose. so, i have a bunch of stuff to so for school this week and next. today, i totally got beat up at work. i got punched in my right arm twice. pinched once in the right arm. hit one in the left arm. punched in the chest. had my glasses ripped off my face and threw across the concrete. got pushed backwards on said concrete. got spit on and hit repeatedly in the back. all of this was on top on the migraine i already had. not to mention said beatings, interfered with the first 25 minutes of the season premeire of one tree hill. i was and still am pissed. i want something, someone, anything to make me happy. why can't i have it? why? fuck. i am crying! i miss phillip. i want to talk to phillip. i want to yell at phillip. i want to take all my aggression out on phillip. on top of all of this, it is steak n shake night and i can't fucking eat because i have to go get bloodwork done. i get to watch everyone else eat the creamy cottage cheese. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i want love. why can't i have someone love me? i must stop before the tears come again. i will focus on school work. bye.
Oct. 4th, 2005 @ 10:07 pm
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